This is a first time post for me .... I have been a form analyst for over 20 years and generally use this site as a simple reference for information,in search of things I may not be aware of......... (it isnt what I know I dont know that scares me, it's what I know I dont know that scares me! ) ... but from what I can gather , your Dad has passed and with that I can sympathise as I lost my Dad to brain cancer about 7 years ago at the ripe old age of 54 ....... I know nothing of your situation , nor of the illness involved, but as a fellow racing enthusiast, my heart goes out to you and your family! You have some tough times ahead ,with the slightest of "triggers" setting off memorys of your Dad (could be a silly as a song on the radio,or his favourite trainer winning a G1) , but believe me , the pain does subside, over the years !.... If your mother is still alive ,her pain is probably harder to bear than yours and you need to be strong for her, just do your best , that's all we can do ! ...... other than that......... put your heart and soul into the racing form, or whatever your passion is ... If you get the form wrong , who cares, it's only money that you will lose which is nothing compared to the loss you have had , and if you get it right , the financial gain will bring SOME joy to an impossible situation
I wish I could offer some substantial advice , given what I have been through , but the fact is , it simply isnt there ! ... all I can do is assure you , time will heal the wound!
I am sure OldLarsy has experienced such pain which resulted in his negative words to other members ....... but mate , who cares about what others think! ..... lick your wounds, dust yourself off , focus on finding a winner or three and let the old man RIP !
Best Wishes to ya Stormy,